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Quickie..

Sat, 28 Nov 2009 01:39:07 GMT

It's very hard to believe that this year is coming to a close. I can't believe
that Thanksgiving already came and went. And with that I hope everyone
had a nice thanksgiving with their friends and family!! And I have to apologize
for my lack of updates or photos on here. I've been doing a lot of debating on
where I want to go with this blog and what I want to do. Still not entirely sure,
but I guess I can take it day by day as I go along and see how it all feels.

In any case, since my last update things have been in a progressively steady
pace. Work has been good and I have already received a raise which made me
super happy! Plus I will be able to buy a bus pass and get reimbursed for it which
is another big plus! I also got a side project from the auditor at work so that gave me
some extra hours to work at home and get some extra untaxed cash which is very
needed. In the social front I haven't done too much but just enough to make me
happy. I got to spend Raquels' birthday with her in Long Beach and we had an
awesome day of Hole Mole food, Molaa, and some afternoon tea/latte lounging at
the coffee shop. The following day I had plans to meet with Erin for some brunch
with a few girls at 212 Bistro for bottomless mimosas. Let's just say the food was
great, and the mimosas even better. I got nicely hammered to the point that I was
slurring my words and could barely walk up stairs. After our brunch and fun was over
Nathan picked me up and we made our way to the mall to go to Bath & Body Works
to buy some handsoaps. How I made it in the mall and in the store I will never know.
It was honestly all a messy blurr. It was insane. I never thought I could get so hammered
off champagne but it is easy to drink lots of it and not realize how drunk you really are!
Somehow I stumbled in the house, made my way to the bathroom and then finally to
bed at about 6pm. I am glad I was able to wake up a few ours later still slightly buzzed
but feeling better. That was a crazy day!!

Haha, well other than that Thanksgiving was nice and mellow. I got to see my mom which
is always nice and Nathan's family. We had lots of food and a nice time together. Well for
now that's it. I will make a good photo update to catch up on the photos and possibly a
few other things along the way. So what have I missed with everyone out there? Anything
you'd like to share about what's going on with you? Do share if so :)

Love & Hugs xoxo

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Fri, 13 Nov 2009 07:01:50 GMT

23:07 Sooo stoked!! We finally got tickets for The Tonight Show with Conan O'Brien!! Its gonna be soo fun!! We've only been waiting for months! #
14:51 2 yr old female chihuahua needs a good home.Pls help if u can.Needs help ASAP!Contact Veronica:ani.newhopeev@lacity.org 818.756.9323/4. #
15:03 I dont know why I woke up feeling more tired than normal.Glad today is my friday though & tomorrow Im working on side project @home.Sweet!:) #

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Thu, 12 Nov 2009 07:01:15 GMT

17:12 Grateful for a little side job for our auditor. A little extra cash never hurts! Happy Veterans day! I'm glad to know a WWII vet; my boss. #

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Wed, 11 Nov 2009 07:01:55 GMT

14:30 Spayed female boxer needs a good home! Pls contact West LA shelter for details on #A0761072 #
14:35 Two young pit mix dogs need a good home! Pls contact Javier/Veronica @ East Valley shelter: 213.485.8613 or 818.756.9323.Help if you can!! #
14:37 Oh and for the last posting their shelter #'s are: 1073397 & 1073060 in order to find them. Thanks! #
15:43 Ohhh hominy veggie tomato soup is waiting for me at home.Mmmm it sounds soo very good that I cant wait!In other news; this day is flying by! #

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Tue, 10 Nov 2009 07:01:42 GMT

22:26 Them Crooked Vultures: entire album available for streaming! I cant wait to hear it tomorrow!! bit.ly/1O3fhp #

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Sun, 08 Nov 2009 07:00:58 GMT

03:03 Had a fun day catching up on tv, ate some del taco for dinner & figured out my classes for next semester.Now its 3am..wow the time flew.. #
03:04 I think its about time for bed now..night night all :) #

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Sat, 07 Nov 2009 07:01:26 GMT

13:13 Finally going to Tishs' to catch up on Curb & do laundry.Fun day! #

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Fri, 06 Nov 2009 07:01:36 GMT

10:35 Having some chai green tea to stay warm.Wish had some milk to go with it.Also called about an apt out here on the hill.Not bad for the area. #
11:44 So anyone else out there do the 1099 Independent Contractor deal?I still need a lil help figuring things out.Any addtl help would be great! #
12:03 Why did I open the NatGeo w/photo of whale being butchered & whale burger as well as photo & story of the Mountain Gorillas killed in 07. :( #
12:04 As a side note-the onlookers in the whale butchering are children on a field trip in Japan.They look very calm & amused.Ughh so sickening. #

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Thu, 05 Nov 2009 07:02:15 GMT

07:52 I love having the boobie in the bathroom being liveable.So not like her.& I love my express order I just got.Black/gray stripey goodness! #
07:54 & that should have been loveable not liveable! #
10:26 Decided to have veggie noodle soup since I got hungry when I arrived @ work.Loving my new stripey shirt that I got from Express.Comfy & cozy #
10:58 Looking forward to a trip to Vegas for the 1st time & a possible trip back to San Diego before the end of the year.More fun times ahead!! :) #
14:42 Finally having lunchie munchies now after being on the phone with T.Rowe Price for an hour.Still working on my leftover pizza from Monday. #
16:37 I can see all the fog coming in the air.Pretty cool. #

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Wed, 04 Nov 2009 07:01:02 GMT

10:43 Woke up with sinus pain & now have a headache from it.Hate these!Drinking vanilla soy latte hoping it will relieve it a bit.On to the day.. #
16:54 Out of work & finally sinus headache gone!That shit was making me feel weird but after 2 Tylenol & lunch it helped.Going through emails now. #
17:54 Oh my god the moon is lovely tonight! Seriously go see for yourself!! #

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Tue, 03 Nov 2009 07:01:10 GMT

16:42 Pretty trippy looking over the hill I'm on & realizing I'm above the clouds! Nice!! #
17:23 Such a pretty full moon tonight. This change of time sucks by the way. Dark already! #
21:11 Tell USDA to change federal policies to protect calves @ bit.ly/1iRZc9 (via @humanesociety) #

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Mon, 02 Nov 2009 07:01:15 GMT

09:03 Woke up thinking it was almost 10 & then realized when looking at my phone that its only 9!! Sweet!! But I still can't believe its november! #
09:53 These kitties still need a home.Pls follow the link or pass along in the hopes of finding them good homes!!Thanks!! bit.ly/1zqo5U #
13:10 So N asked me to be ready around 2 for lunch.Not sure where were going buy I love surprises & being out of the house will be great also! #
13:11 And that should have been but not buy of course.. #
14:56 So now Loki got under the house and wont come out.So we cant go anywhere now since we have to wait for him to come home... #
16:35 Just watched the No Fixed Abode’s Cause An Effect video directed by Heath Ledger.I really liked it!Sad he went too soon bit.ly/47M5Dk #
16:37 And lunch has turned into dinner from The Pike.Their mushroom tacos w/rice are the best!Havent had them in a while.. #
16:46 Loki just decided to come home right now all dirty & gray.Grateful he came home before the sun went down.He still got a good spanking. #

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Sun, 01 Nov 2009 06:01:02 GMT

11:28 Watching Rebel without a Cause on ovation.Wont be doing olvera st tonight.Mom decided not to go since bro is sick.Wish I could have seen her #
20:27 Listening to some old DJ Shadow [Organ Donor] while I chill out at home.Who else is hanging out tonight? #
21:06 Im switching it up a bit and listening to Massive Attack now. I looove me some Massive Attack!! Ahhhhh.... #

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Sat, 31 Oct 2009 06:01:07 GMT

14:41 Hahaha yes indeed!! RT @slaughtergirl: Please re-twit this shit, let's get it going.....#spermburpers #
17:49 Listening to old Placebo.Trying to find this one song that brings back lots of memories.Im sure Ill find it soon!Have a nice halloween! #
22:15 Hahaha watching beavis & butthead. I love when it's on!! #

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Fri, 30 Oct 2009 06:01:00 GMT

15:04 Just having lunch since been busy.Atleast it kept my mind busy from thinking about the dissapointment I recieved from Getty Images today. #
15:05 So flipping bummed out about that but oh well,gotta try again a year from now and see what happens. #
15:12 In Booby news:Shes not very happy w/us right now.Had a vet trip yesterday am,got a shot,& scrub for backrash.Scrub+baby benadryl for nxt wk. #
15:17 The MJ Pandora station has been keeping me company since yesterday. #
17:42 Glad my work week is over.Feeling tired & hoping with all the sickness in the air that I don't get sick. #
18:13 Right about now I wish I had rooftop access to take photos of the sunset.So damn pretty.While I listen to kidneythieves. #

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Thu, 29 Oct 2009 06:01:04 GMT

07:41 Chilly morning.Gonna have some frozen waffles for breakfast & then getting ready for work.Dressing warmer today.Long sleeve time! #
11:31 I really want to go see "This Is It".Too bad I know I would be balling my eyes out.Dont know when Ill be able to see it anyways. #
11:33 Im pretty backed up on movies,since District 9.Wow,how the time flies.Also have a new love for Bonobo thanks to Pandora radio.Ambient tunes. #
12:12 Just realizing with the cold weather that Im running out of my Burts Bees lip balm.I honestly cant live without this stuff!Need to stock up! #
17:13 I'm finally getting the feeling back in my face once I got on the bus.Was waiting for a bit in the cold air. #
17:25 Damn these buses are all offon the time today.Ah well just need to stay warm. #

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Wed, 28 Oct 2009 06:00:57 GMT

17:06 Whats up with the wind right now.Damn got really windy fast.Well on my way home now. #
17:42 Wow.LB is super foggy.Wasn't expecting that. #

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Tue, 27 Oct 2009 06:01:18 GMT

10:40 In my hurriedness this morning I completely forgot to put on my bracelets & watch.Wrists feel naked today.. #
15:18 A friend asked me what I do to mix up the daily routine.Got me thinking so as to not fall into that.Hoping to have some friends time soon. #
15:19 What do you do to not fall into the same routine?Im gonna try my hardest to mix it up.Good advice to live by & really got me thinking. #
15:38 Looked out the window & realized that the clouds were really nice.Snapped up a few photos and almost blinded myself due to the bright sun. #
15:40 I adore the clouds when they look like white brush strokes against a perfectly blue sky as a canvas. #
18:16 Finally in LB.Chill time at home with my stinky green soon.Just waiting for N to pick me up. #
21:20 &hearts; The Week In Photos 102609 bit.ly/4EikRJ #

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The Week In Photos 102609

Tue, 27 Oct 2009 04:15:33 GMT

This past week has been pretty calm, but at work it got a bit busy.
Just trying to learn stuff before Stephanie left. But anyways, I still
managed to snap a few photos during the week, all from my iPhone.
I realized today when I finally picked up my Nikon, that I haven't
picked up it up all week. I just had to get a photo of the sky, but
that will be for next week. For this week the photos are a bit boring.
Well enjoy...

On my bus ride home I noticed this baby's foot sticking out from the
blanket. It just happened to catch my eye at that moment.

The sun coming into the conference room while I ate my lunch.

Three cheese tortellini with basil tomato sauce and water. Calm..

Ziti parmesano for lunch.

Ramses lounging by the sun.

Miss Kittie giving me ackward ears.

An incense burner that my dad gave me years ago.

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Mon, 26 Oct 2009 06:01:11 GMT

18:04 &hearts; Linkage Sunday 102509 bit.ly/3WBfmp #

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Linkage Sunday 102509

Mon, 26 Oct 2009 01:01:23 GMT

A short version for this week..not many links to share, still do enjoy ;)

♥ A cat fight that I'm sure many of you have seen! Too hilarious not to share!

♥ From 1000 Awesome Things, #651 When the phone rings and it's somebody
you were just thinking about. This has happened many times and it's always
a nice feeling. Mainly when you were just thinking about the person.

♥ This is a pretty interesting little chart of what women go through during their
period. And the artist managed to make it a cute adorable chart. Check it out.

♥ It's hard to believe that it's been 20 years that NIN released"Pretty Hate Machine".

♥ I really enjoyed this video of Dead Weather's "I Cut Like a Buffalo" which
shows Jack White busting some dance moves. Interestingly enough, this
song was stuck in my head this morning as I woke up.

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Sun, 25 Oct 2009 06:01:08 GMT

15:32 Change of plans.Gonna stay in instead.Priorities & would rather see mom nxt Sat @Olvera St & make that nice. #
15:33 Grabbing portabello mushroom panini lunch now + vanilla latte since I feel cold today. #
18:16 Just finished listening to The Flaming Lips on Morning Becomes Eclectic.Now the Rollins show on KCRW.Kool tunes.. #

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Sat, 24 Oct 2009 06:00:59 GMT

23:27 Just had mini rant re:my dad to N after talking w/mom.Talked his ear off over issues & Im still baffled over many facts w/him.Confusing... #
23:30 Still feel the urge to write about it, I just dont get how he can have not a worry in the world while mom is the adult handling evrything uh #
23:33 Its all frustrating just wish I could talk sense into him.So very stubborn & feel bad for mom dealing w/it & not able to help.I dont get it. #
00:56 Dad Rant...I couldn't help myself but get my feelings out in the open about all this... bit.ly/4rCzCL #

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Dad Rant

Fri, 23 Oct 2009 07:44:27 GMT

I had been wanting to write about something more personal but couldn't figure out
a good subject. And writing it in my paper journal would have hurt my hand, badly!
In any case after getting off the phone with my mom about 2 hours ago this feeling
lit a fire under me to write about this, and it had to happen now. I knew If i waited till
later or tomorrow the same feeling wouldn't be there. I needed to seize the opportunity
now. Plus I already talked Nathans ear off about it and I'm soo very grateful that he
heard me out, but I still needed a release to get it out in a written format.

So what is this that I'm talking about. My dad. Daddy issues you may say? I guess so.
Frustration and confusion are my main emotions right now. Not understanding his
reasoning on life and we all naturally have to do. Don't get me wrong, I love my dad and
I respect him in some way, but I don't understand him at all! My mom was letting me
know how he still has not taken care of back taxes. Still has not taken the initiative to
do them and get them taken care of. This is something we all do as a part of life. It's
what you have to do, there is no option. Well he has no worry about it whatsoever.
Even after my mom let him know that she would let him borrow money [$400] to get
them done and taken care of. Even after knowing that my mom needs them for my
brothers medical help and since he receives checks from the government since he
is special needs. And my mom needs them to qualify for a lower cost on her medical
appointments and prescriptions. I don't understand his reasoning to take care of it
to not have it be hanging over your head. We all need to do it, it's not a special case
where it only applies to him. I also don't understand how he doesn't worry about
supporting for his family. Worrying about what we all do at one point or another in
our adult life. Whether we have a job to be able to support ourselves or family or where
rent and bill money will come from. Even though my mom works, too much I might
add, and my brother receives a monthly check that pretty much covers rent, how he
can just feel that now he doesn't have to work or worry about providing. It's astonishing!
Yet if we go out to dinner and he has no money to pay he feels soo embarrassed that
he wont want to eat or order anything. Why can't he have that same sort of mentality
at home with the family, with my mom, my brother, my grandparents!! Really!!??To not
feel that urge and that fulfillment of having a job and knowing that you have money to
spend and are able to help out. He doesn't even call my grandparents to see how they
are, to check on them!! They live in a ranch in the hills 2 hours away from the city
raising their own animals and taking baths in the river in pretty poor conditions,
but he doesn't have that urge to say, "Hey maybe I should work harder so I can send
my old parents money so they don't have to work so hard in their old age" Or, "Maybe
I should call them for 5 minutes to check on them and say hi". His excuse is that he
doesn't like being on the phone. Well hell, I don't either much anymore but I make the
effort to keep in touch with my mom even if it's once a week just to say hi and see what's
new. Well my grandparents are not 30 or 40 years old where they can work the same.
But he doesn't seem to have that urgency to send money or keep in touch with them.
He thinks it's ok to go visit them and show up with only luggage with your belongings
and no money whatsoever, no money for the trip or to bring to help them out. Seriously!!???

It baffles me to think my dad can be this way. The dad I look up to, that I share things in
common with and that I love. He wont even call me and he'll give me the same excuse,
that he doesn't like being on the phone. It's a disconnection with him in some way. I mean
if I call looking for my mom and he answers we talk for a bit, but knowing that he doesn't like
being on the phone it makes me feel like it's forced or something. I just don't get it. I don't get
his calmness and aloofness towards everything. It's almost like he wants to forget about any
real life things that we all have to do and take care of and just path his own calm way to where
he wants. It troubles me to know that he is like this while he sits back and sees how hard my
mom works. I thought it was always the opposite, the man wanted to work and not let the
woman work too much. At least from the generation that they came from. Or at least be equal
with payments and working and both people bring in half and half to the table. I don't understand. It's just... wow....I don't know....

And with his health he is just the same. He'll have stomach problems and get weird
symptoms and my mom always tells him he should go and see a doctor to find out what's
wrong and get some help. Well no, it's too much trouble to do. So whatever it is he doesn't
want to worry about it. He is just sooooo stubborn in his ways. I have tried talking about him
in the past but he doesn't wan to hear it and typically I don't get a straight answer that makes
sense as to why he does the things he does and why he doesn't try to help or at least try.
He helps in the mornings in the bakery that my mom works at, but that's only a few hours
and not a lot of money. Then he has the rest of the day, where he could be working
somewhere else, but no he doesn't want to have an employer that he has to work for
and that he has to answer to. Are you fucking kidding me!!?? We all have to deal with this
at one point or another cause we have to work!! Why not him!!?? Ughh...I really wish I could
help my mom in convincing him to try to change his ways but he wont hear it from me or
from her. Or at least to get the damn taxes done, but no, that's an ongoing battle. And after
10 years of being this way, he still has not changed and I don't know if he ever will. It's
truly frustrating and often wonder why my mom doesn't leave him but she's told me she
doesn't want t just kick him out all cold blooded, but at the same time he doesn't appreciate
what he has and doesn't try to make the change to better things at home. It's truly appalling
to know things are still like this after all these years. I often want to get my mom and brother
and get them away from it but he's still my dad and what do I do there? What happens?
Would he learn a lesson or be left out cold, I don't know. That's why I feel for my mom cause
she deals with it and somehow has the patience to deal with him. I don't know how much
I could have tolerated before ripping the hair out of my head in exasperation!!

Oh my god...I had to pause a few times, take deep breaths and coalesce the thoughts
in my head on here. I feel somewhat drained but feel good getting it out. I just really
wish I knew what was going on and why things are the way they are. That's the most troubling
to think of. I have no idea that I or my mom will ever now...In any case sorry this turned into a
long rant and if you read it thanks for doing so. I think I need to go watch my shows to try to get
my mind off it cause it's all I can think of right now.

In any case, give me your thoughts on this cause I don't know what to think about all this
anymore...I am a whole range of emotions right now, especially confused...

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Fri, 23 Oct 2009 06:01:02 GMT

23:11 Ahh wish I could stay up late tonight but realized its wed & not thurs.One more day & my workweek ends.Sweeet! #
13:34 Holy crap, where did the time go today!!I cant believe its already almost 2pm.Time for lunch before time keeps slipping away from me. #
13:52 Ziti parmesano time & lounge while listening to Pandora!Loking forward to tonight! #
14:17 Hahaha everytime I hear Duran Duran's :Hungry Like a Wolf" I think of Andy Dick in Old School.."Who's hungry, who's hungry.." #
16:56 Boy what a bust day.Found myself loosing track of time & before I knew it the day was gone.Now at bus stop waiting for my bus home. #
16:57 Ha, busy day not bust day! ;) #
18:35 Picking up sticky green & dinner for tonight.Both yummmss!! #
20:04 Fluff, a domestic 4 month old black haired kitty needs a home.#A1068491 Contact Veronica @213.435.9152 if u can help.Photo available also. #

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